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lately i've been feeling so out of it and really depressed. it probably doesn't help that i continuously forget my meds on a regular basis. nothing is interesting me in the slightest... i'm just in the hugest funk of my life. sorry that this entry is horribly depressing, but i guess it's good to be open when you're struggling. i guess i'm not in that huge of a funk because i've been slowly working on the site, editing stuff since i managed to get a free trial of adobe photoshop. other than that i've been watching movies with my bf - well educating him on some slashers from the early 2000s since he hasn't seen most of them. i pride myself of having stupid useless knowledge of late 90s / early 00s horror films.

i wish i had more friends that share my interests, but i'm the WORST at making friends and even worse at keeping them. don't get me started on making friends with girls..... i literally can't and it's not even that i don't want to be friends with them either. it's just the ones i encounter are fucking brutal and mean to me and mock the way i speak. like i don't speak weird or anything like that but a lot of people point out my voice which i'm pretty insecure about.